Did some laundry yesterday

September 26, 2011 § Leave a comment

I did 33 minutes of laundry yesterday. Usually it takes about twice as long to fold laundry, but the Brit boy was helping me out. Yay!

Level 6
XP 291
Tidy 3
Clean 3
Organize 4
Next 315

I also spent some time sorting through piles of papers and I found the divorce papers I’d been looking for. They’re coming with me today and this week, hopefully today but we shall see, I’ll be heading to the courthouse to file them. Wahooozahs! <–That is a cheer everyone should take up. Yes.


It’s like having a new computer

September 25, 2011 § 2 Comments

So no posts yesterday. Sorry about that, oh hordes* of people who read this blog. You see, my computer was out of commission for most of the day.

It all started when I wanted to download a very small, perfectly legal file and my computer said there wasn’t space. I thunk back to a few nights before when my computer had been using some program that I didn’t know about to apparently download shit from some cloud service that I don’t use. I’d stopped that program and removed it from my computer, but who knows what other shit the ex left on here?

A lot of it, apparently. When I manually deleted everything in the Documents folder, I found that it contained over 35,000 items. Flippin’ FSM! Right?

So a coworker let me borrow a start-up disc and, after flubbing it on the first try, I finally managed to erase everything from my computer and reinstall the OS. Ahhhh… It’s so much faster now and those programs that I don’t even know what they do will stop popping up in the corner asking me to update them. Yesss….

As for housework, which is undoubtedly why you read this blog (quell your eye rolls, please), I’ve been lazy busy with, er, work and shit and haven’t done any. Pretty much all of yesterday was taken up with the reformatting of the computer, for example. I do, however, have a very large pile of laundry awaiting me in the living room as well as a messy bathroom bedroom living room office house to work on.

So expect an update soon. Maybe.

*Six. I think there are six of you.

The process of getting sterilized

September 23, 2011 § 1 Comment

I’m sterilized. Not germ-free, more-babies-free. Even with my uterus saying how it wants babies recently, I do not regret my decision. Recently I came across the saga of trying to get my tubes tied on an old blog I used to keep. I shall repost bits of it here for you.

February 6:

It just occurred to me yesterday that what I was blaming on Turkey, all these damn pimples, are probably actually the fault of my IUD. Dur. We tried when we first got here but we’re going to try again to get Robert a vasectomy. Obviously birth control for me isn’t working to my satisfaction and them saying that he, an adult, is unable to make his own decisions about his own damn body is just complete and utter bullshit.

If they tell him no then I can see about getting a tubal. I really don’t care which one happens and woe be to the healthcare provider who gets in the way of a woman’s reproductive choices!

I guess this is what started it all. Later that day I posted this:

So, Robert has wonky testicles. Because of this, the doctor said that it’s not a good idea for him to get a vasectomy while he’s here. So I just called and made an appointment to see my gynecologist about getting my tubes tied. I have an appointment in the morning.

And a month later I was sterilized. But let’s not skip over the story, shall we? After several appointments, spanning a couple of weeks, I finally got the go-ahead that I could have the procedure and my pre-procedure appointments began.

February 26:

So I went into the doctor’s office this morning and he told me that he had a patient come in who he’d given a tubal to six months ago and now she wants a reversal. He said he was unable to give her one because he’d cauterized her. So he said instead of cauterizing my tubes, he’s going to tie them off. He’s also going with minilaparotomy instead of laparoscopy.

I always found it a bit odd that the decisions of other women were used so the doctor could decide what I’d want instead of me being asked what I want. By this point, I didn’t really care which type of procedure I had, as long as I had one. I did my research and found that while just tying the tubes gives them a better chance of growing back, it’s still just a teensy tiny chance.

February 29:

I just got a call from a major at the women’s health clinic. Basically, she said, “I know you say that you don’t want anymore kids, but I think that you do and my opinion is more important than yours.” She went ahead and set me up an appointment on Monday (ON MY BIRTHDAY) to have just one more round of counseling. “But we’ll still treat it as if you’re getting the tubal on the 10th,” she says. As if. In other words, “I just know you’re going to be changing your mind after THIS round of counseling because I know what you want better than you do. I don’t know this because I’ve met you and know you, I know this because you’re only 22.”

I’m tired of reiterating all the reasons I don’t want any more kids to people. When I was on the phone with her it basically just came down to, “Look, I never wanted kids. Now I have a kid and … … I don’t want any more.” It sounds mean and unloving to finish that sentence, which is why I didn’t. Will I on Monday (MY BIRTHDAY)? You betcha.

Oh man, that bitch pissed me off so bad. I ended up going into that appointment and telling the doctor I met with that I had suffered a violation of my HIPAA rights and wanted to file a complaint against the major, since she had nothing to do with my care and shouldn’t’ve known I was getting fixed let alone called me at my home about it. Needless to say, my surgery went on (almost) as scheduled. (My anesthesiologist got sick so it had to be delayed by a week.)

March 4:

[T]here has been a trend over the course of me trying to get my tubal that has seemed rather odd to me.

Even though everybody says it’s my age that gives them pause when I’ve asked for permanent sterilization, one of the alternatives that’s ALWAYS mentioned is Robert getting a vasectomy. I get that, from a medical perspective, vasectomies are less invasive and usually safer. Fine. But offering that up as an alternative to what I want does not address the main concern: my age.

I don’t get it. There’s resistance to giving a tubal to a 23-year-old woman, but giving a vasectomy to her 22-year-old husband is all right? Or, if not all right, at least preferable?

It makes me feel … weird. Almost grimy. I’ve developed an aversion to the question. If it was posed by itself and framed in a medical context, I don’t think I would feel this way. But it is invariably asked along with a list of other alternatives to giving me a tubal. Leave my IUD in. Get a hormone-free copper IUD. Implants. NuvaRing. Vasectomy. Shots. One of these is not like the others. One of these doesn’t belong.


No, I’m being paranoid. I *must* be paranoid. It couldn’t be that men are viewed as more capable of making such a permanent decision. It couldn’t be that there’s some misogynistic reason to keep a young woman fertile against her will. It couldn’t be. Could it?

Now, I’m not saying there’s intention here, but when this same question is posed over and over, here’s what it eventually sounds like: “I don’t mind if you don’t want to have children again as long as you are fertile.”

Oh, god damn, that was annoying. I was viewed as incapable of making such a permanent decision because of my tender age, but my younger husband was perfectly capable. What does that say?

In the end, I love my tubal. I farted a lot afterwards as the air they pumped into me escaped. And then this funny thing happened…

March 17:

And then I woke up. I had been vividly dreaming, or so it seemed, and I was awake. My glasses were on and I felt like I was having period cramps. I didn’t feel like I had gone anywhere. I said “that was weird[.]” … I asked Robert who put my glasses on me and he said he did…because I’d asked him to. I told him I didn’t remember that at all.

I just asked Robert if he could tell when I “woke up” to myself. He said I was awake when I was wheeled in the room, but I don’t remember that. I told him, “It’s when I said ‘that was weird.'” He said, “You were saying that over and over from the time you were wheeled in the room.” Hahahaha… I must have been having that same sensation of waking up over and over.

At least I know that I react the same way every time I’m faced with that particular situation. But I guess it’d be odd if I reacted differently one time, you know?

My, how fashion changes

September 21, 2011 § 1 Comment

While I still love the lolita look, I’ve moved a bit more toward the classic lolita as opposed to the goth or punk lolita that I used to love. Here’s a bit of an old post of mine I found from January, 2008:

I don’t dress like I’d like to dress. I’d like to wear pretty clothes. Punky clothes. Gothy clothes. Dressy clothes. Instead, I wear jeans and t-shirts. There is actually a reason for this.

You see, if I wore the short skirts and striped stockings, I’d be cold. At least, I’d be cold in the winter. That’s not my main concern though. My main concern really shines though when I think about how much I like the lolita look.

There’s more to lolita than just fashion. Many try to do an entire lolita lifestyle, which is basically a way of living that is completely opposite of me. Trying to be/look young is a main part of that, and that really figures into the fashion. I’m mostly drawn to the short, poofy skirts. The lace is pretty too. Oh and the ribbon. LOVE the ribbon! Many of the dresses are much too country for me, especially with classic and country lolita looks. I tend to prefer the gothic/punk lolita dresses. Like the one pictured.

HOWEVER, I’m so, so scared that I’ll end up turning 30 with nothing left in my closet but either lolita dresses or short little punk mini skirts… Things much to young and inappropriate. Or, even worse, I won’t realize that I no longer have the legs to pull them off and I’ll end up looking ridiculous. Like some aging woman trying desperately to hold on to her youth.

For the record, my ideal wardrobe would consist of short and/or poofy skirts to be worn with t-shirts and stockings and fun and funky tops that I could wear with jeans when it’s a bit colder out.

So while my fashion ideal has changed slightly, I notice that my fear of being old with little girl dresses hasn’t. And while I often got away with–nay, flaunted–shorter bottoms than I do now, that’s not something that I feel is appropriate for me anymore.

And yes, I still mostly wear jeans and t-shirts.

What’s your fashion like, how does it differ from your ideal fashion, and has your style changed any over the last few years?

Happy Pirate Day!

September 19, 2011 § Leave a comment

Today, September 19, be International Talk Like a Pirate Day! Show no fear wit’ yer “Arrr”s an’ yer “Me hearty”s!

I be dressin’ like I be a pirate fer work terday, ye scurvy dogs! An’ I be endin’ all me sentences in exclamation points!

This mornin’, I be havin’ this conversation wit’ me progeny:

Me: Keelin, do you have any pirate clothes? It’s Pirate Day!
Keelin: NO! And none of the other kids will be dressed like pirates so I don’t want to.

After she be gettin’ out o’ her shower, she wandered in the office and saw the beginnin’s o’ me post.

Keelin: Wait, it’s really Pirate Day?
Me: Yeah, did you think I was making it up?
Keelin: Yeah.

Ah, she be learnin’ not ter always trust ‘er mother. Only took ‘er eight yaaaarrrs!

So get yerself in the spirit an’ dress an’ talk like ye be a pirate!

Get ready for some old stuff

September 18, 2011 § Leave a comment

I found an old blog-ish thing that I kept on an old social networking site called Multiply. I figured that since I sucked so bad at updating last week, what with my new shift and all, that I should definitely schedule out some posts. This week will be flashback week as you’ll be reading some musings I had in 2008 and 2009. Enjoy!

Maybe I can find my old Teen Open Diary and you can read the grand, grand thoughts of me as a teenager! Nah, I wouldn’t do that to you. …Or would I?

It’d be full of sad pictures of teenage girls, like this one:

Lack of posting

September 17, 2011 § Leave a comment

I apologize that I haven’t posted much lately. It’s been the two-pronged beast of working new hours and hanging out with friends more. At the end of the day I just go home and flop into bed.

This morning, I awoke from dreams of Excel sheets and VLOOKUP formulas…

I am having a shit ton of fun, though. I just think I need to write up some actual posts, not just videos, and schedule them out throughout the week for you guys.

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